After a 14-hour marathon workday last Friday, I transitioned my last client account, cleaned all the emails out of my Inbox, and powered down my work laptop. I am now on an extended leave of absence.
Officially, these next 12 weeks will be to care for my mom (who is terminally ill). Unofficially, though, this will be a test to see what life actually feels like when away from the job I’ve worked daily for the past 12 years. Will I find more fulfilling activities to spend my days? Or will I miss the paycheck so much that I re-sell my soul to get it back?
For years, I’ve fantasized about this day—finally being footloose and fancy-free! No more ridiculous, degrading, corporate rigmarole to endure! But honestly, today, the only emotion I’m feeling is….fear.
All those negative “what if’s” rushing at me. What if I never find another (let alone, better) job? What if I lose all my life’s savings (or my good health)? What if I regret selling my house (and most of my possessions) to become a full-time RVer? And perhaps the biggest fear of all—what will life be like no longer having my last living parent, my mom, to turn to?
So, these next 12 weeks will (hopefully) offer a time to transition without fully transitioning yet. A time to do more giving and sharing of myself to see which direction it might lead my life to next.
To that point, I’ve wanted to start blogging more often to track my journey through these life changes. I recently came across the A-to-Z Challenge that sounded like an interesting and motivational way to help me start doing just that. Quite appropriately timed too-- the challenge happens to start today!
A-to-Z was the brainchild of Arlee Bird (http://tossingitout.blogspot.com/), who posed this challenge to his readers in 2010: could they blog every day except Sundays for the month of April, and not only that, could they focus each of those 26 posts on a different letter of the alphabet?
In 2010, 100 bloggers accepted his challenge. The next year, a whopping 1300 bloggers gave it a try. Now, for 2013, there are over 1800 bloggers currently signed up! Give the list a look around—there are quite a wide variety of blogs represented! And, if you’re a blogger, why not sign up and give this a try yourself?!!
Thanks, Arlee, for the appropriately-timed motivation!